Woman Crush Month is a month-long series by the girls of She Did What She Wanted
in celebration of Women’s History Month.
By Julia Malave
I remember feeling my heart sink into my chest when I heard someone tell me that the show I had been waiting eight months to attend was going to “suck.” I pushed my hair back and tried to listen to the conversation as best I could. We were deep into the Delirium tour and Ellie Goulding was in the middle of touring parts of the south, particularly the Carolinas. These people had been to the show in South Carolina the night before.
The crowd was awful. People were drunk. No one was listening to the music. And everyone just couldn’t stand the fact that Ellie couldn’t stand the political climate in our country. God forbid, a British woman has an opinion on an American election that has the potential to shape global affairs.
So she quieted herself. She tried to be less aware during that show. She did not interact with the crowd or speak in between songs. She sang. She did what she was paid to do. And she left the stage hurt because the people who she traveled across oceans to see were disappointed in her for who she was. You could see it in her eyes, according to the group of people behind me. And they weren’t expecting much from tonight.
I was so worried after hearing this. I had been looking forward to this show for months because it was my first time seeing my favorite female artist. I was worried that the crowd would be unfriendly or she would be miserable the whole night.
She proved me wrong. Ellie carried herself with so much grace and it radiated onto the crowd. It was so surreal to look back into the audience and see everyone have so much love. She was so happy to be performing for people who loved her and cared about what she had to say. We were silent when she spoke, hanging on every word. And even silent when she sang until the finale so we could hear her. It was magical to know that your energy and your love for someone was appreciated while she was onstage.
And that she was everything I admired. Someone who could remain strong even when she knew that those around her had the potential to knock her down. Someone who cared so deeply about what those around her felt that it had an effect on her entire being. And someone who remained unapologetic about how she felt when everyone that was staring her in the face disagreed.
Ellie Goulding is a humanitarian. Her compassion for people reminds me that it is okay to care and be upset about things that others may look down on you for. She reminds me to stay true to who I am even in the face of adversity. She is fearless when it comes to sharing her emotions. Her music is raw and authentic. She is honest with herself and it comes out in the music that reminds me to be real with myself too.
Most importantly, she uses her platform for advocacy. Unlike most artists, she is not afraid to tell it like it is. She openly expressed her sadness about Donald Trump’s presidency. She uses social media regularly to remind us the importance of compassion and how important it is to have social responsibility. She reminds us that it is important to care about things that occur on a global scale as well as things that may not have an effect on our lives. She encourages her fans and her audiences to take part in the fight against any injustice. She reminds girls like me that it is okay to be human and shares her experiences in love so we can learn from her. She relates to us all. She is bold. And she reminds me that there is no room for shame in the fight for justice and what is right.
She Did What She Wanted firmly believes there’s nothing better than women empowering other women, so when we found out March is Women’s History Month, we knew we needed to do something special. There are too many amazing women to fit into just thirty one days, but to do our best, we invited our contributors to write about the favorite women in their lives, and Woman Crush Month came to be. #WCM is the ultimate girl power party, and it’s all about women celebrating women and their achievements, and we personally can’t think of anything better than that.